Monday, August 24, 2009
Gazing Into the Abyss
My good friend and arch-nemesis Tony Posnanski (The Anti-Jared) made an interesting observation yesterday about the way this space seems to be evolving, unfolding into a more serious tone much of the time.
I don't know how such a circumstance could have occured, unless I've simply exhausted every lame fat joke in my book and grew tired of making scales and stalks of celery converse.
I guess I blame you for this subtle shift. Yes you... you laughed at my ha-ha's, left gleeful remarks when I made things rhyme and even indulged me a few knock-knock jokes (well, some of you anyway...). Writing those kinds of goofy things make me happier than a puppy playing with a slightly smaller puppy. As long as I'm producing this blog, you can be certain there will always be a certain amount of silly nonsensical nonsense. Like the Underdog tattoo on my ass, it's part of who I am.
It didn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that the more serious posts I put out there seemed to generate more buzz, more comments, more raw emotion (and now I feel really stupid for hiring that rocket scientist who figured it out for me... thanks for nothing, Doctor Rodmonivich).
I noticed something else as well. While I could pound out two or three silly posts in a surprising short amount of time, the serious ones took quite a bit longer. And they took considerably more out of me. Sometimes I feel drained after writing one, like a lemon wrung of its juice.
A famous Nietzsche quote goes something to the effect of, "When you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss also gazes into you."
What does that mean? It's a warning that when you seek to understand the "abyss," or the darker elements of life or truth (or weight loss), you can end up getting swallowed by that emptiness. The binge eater swallowed by seeking understanding about why he eats like he does... how appropriate.
So Tony might be right (but please don't tell him I said so). The balance seems to be shifting and this space seems to be undergoing changes, growing up just a tad. It's turning into something that it wasn't a few months ago.
Funny, so am I.