Why Me?

Weekly weigh-in: -------
Loss: ----
Total loss: ------
Emotion: -------

I was pleasantly surprised that this post seemed to have launched a sh*tload of deep, introspective stories throughout the weight-loss blogosphere. Besides giving me a bump of pride, it made for some awfully good reading.

I probably should take a stab at answering my own questions, but I simply don’t have enough hours in the day, what with all the time I’m having to spend not weighing in and not doing the math of how much I lost this week. In case you’re new here or have the same sort of short-term memory as me, I’ve put the scale away for the month of March as I concentrate on strength-training.

Whenever I lift weights, my scale starts acting all funny (and by funny, I mean that it registers a gain). Oh, I know the drill: “Muscle weighs more than fat. Muscle weighs more than fat. Muscle weighs more than fat.” Still, I can’t see the scale climb up without crapping my pants, so I’m flying blind this month.

And as for the “why” questions, there’s only one that holds my interest these days: “why am I gonna keep it off this time when I haven’t in the past?”

You see, I have a history of losing lots of weight and then turning around, almost immediately actually, and gaining it right back. It makes no sense, but that seems to be the way I seem to roll.

But I’ve never enjoyed the kind of success I’m seeing right now, never felt better or more confident about my future than I do right now.

If you’re reading these words, then I give you partial credit for my achievement as well. I don’t want to gain it back for a lot of reasons, but one of the big ones is that I don’t want to tell you that I’ve failed. Kinda silly, huh? I mean, we don’t really know each other, but I still feel like if I gained it back, I’d be letting you down.

I’d be letting us both down.

So I’m going to keep doing my crazy thang on this blog, and keep doing those things – eating less, eating a little healthier, exercising more – that I know will work for me, for you, for anybody.

And that’s why I’m going to keep succeeding.

I'm Sorry, Coolio

As I walk to the fridge in the shadow of my kitchen,
I take a look in the door
And I feel my belly twitchin’.
'Cause I’m starvin’ and I’ve found that my willpower’s gone.
And I know in my gut, I’ll never make it to dawn.
Yeah,
Cold leftover mac–and-cheese, oh I really lurve it.
Grabbing something healthy, you know that's unheard of.
Betta watch what I’m doin’
And watch what I’m eatin’,
Or me and my diet are gonna take another beatin’.
I really hate to bitch but I gotta howl,
Tummy growls, and I want somethin’ tasty in my jowls.
Food! I'm the kinda g that nobody wants to be like,
On my knees in the night
Eating noodles by the fridge light.

We've been spending most our lives
Living in a glutton’s paradise.
We've been working those forks and knives.
Living in a glutton’s paradise.
We been wasting most our lives
Living in a glutton’s paradise.
Excited when the pizza arrives.
Living in a glutton’s paradise.

Looked at the situation I found myself facing,
Wanted a normal life, stop shopping at the fat shop
Knew it was time for me to take one for the team.
Stopped the television watching, cuz now I gotta dream.
I'm an educated dude with weight-loss on my mind
Got some weights in my hand and a gleam in my eye.
I'm a low-carb gangsta, walking with a swagger
I’m a weight-loss outlaw, gettin’ less stout, ya’ll
And I’m down with eatin’ broccoli and kraut raw.
And my homies are down; they don't arouse my hunger.
Food, now it don’t cause me so much anguish
I'm living life day to day, not gonna languish.
Under two hundred now, think I ever live to see one-ninety?
The way it’s going, you bet your sweet hiney!

Tell me why do we
Get trapped by obesity?
Y’know the ones we hurt
Are you and me?

We've been spending most our lives
Living in a glutton’s paradise.
We've been working those forks and knives.
Living in a glutton’s paradise.
We been wasting most our lives
Living in a glutton’s paradise.
Excited when the pizza arrives.
Living in a glutton’s paradise.

Power thru a workout for about an hour,
Countin’ down the minutes til I take my shower.
Eating healthy food now, if ya know what I’m sayin’
I got veggies in a pan, olive oil PAM sprayin’
Time to do some sautéing.
Got some good things to eat here
And pounds dropping like a meteor
Don’t ya understand: this is the final frontier?
I hope you can,
I hope you will,
I hope you do,
And if you don’t, you’re out of luck, fool!

We've been spending most our lives
Living in a glutton’s paradise.
We've been working those forks and knives.
Living in a glutton’s paradise.
We been wasting most our lives
Living in a glutton’s paradise.
Excited when the pizza arrives.
Living in a glutton’s paradise.

Tell me why are we
So blind to see.
That obesity hurts
Both you and me?
Tell me why are we
So blind to see.
That the ones we hurt
Are you and me?